This is a compilation of all the times I fell apart beautifully. And I’m taking time to pen down these thoughts. To articulate them over and over till I get it right. It feels more like an obsession, and less like passion.Maybe because I feel my words could save a soul.Maybe because I know this could save my soul.
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Maybe, you are right. I didn’t fall in love with you. I fell for the idea of you. But somewhere in the middle of our laughter, long conversations, living room picnics, teasing, long drives, Thai food runs, I think I fell for you too. Because, yeah, letting you go wasn’t that bad. What mercilessly shredded me to pieces was letting go of the idea of being with you, someone like you forever. And in some ways, even though the pain is different, it all hurts just the same.
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Do you think God would fight for our souls to be together?
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LIFE IS BETTER IN MY HEAD, SOMETIMES.
Was it early spring or late summer
Time shifts differently when you live in your head.
I saw flowers and caught warm evening sunsets
I was in love with every moment that we could have.
I've never known how to take life day by day.
I'll see you and see the end.
I have a plot-line for my life,
Exactly how life should play out.
But life never listens
I've not tamed the wind to follow my plans.
So, it's okay if you don't stay, I'm prepared for that.
I just hope you know I want you to.
PLEASE KEEP THIS DOOR CLOSED.
I don’t know why I get so anxious when you don’t text me back,
It’s trauma from my previous experiences.
I’m always expecting you to be packing and running
In the opposite direction.
When my mind runs different scenarios
There’s none where in the end you stay.
It’s wounds from my bullet holes.
It’s scars from the hands of those who once said they loved me.
I think you’re different but I’ve been wrong before.
I’m trying not to let my fear be a side stepping penny that carries the rest of my narrative.
I know our chapter just began,
And I’m already writing out hell bound endings in red
When all you’ve done is colored me gold.
I’m terrified, that I’ll put my faith in you staying
Just for you to leave me stranded because in the previous chapters coloured in blue,
There’s none of their promises that ever came true.
I have this big fear that you’ll leave and my heart will be broken.
It’s definitely worse in my head,
Because in reality you’ve made me happier.
AUSTRALIA SHORES TOOK MY FIRST LOVE
Over the sea,
The deep blue skies,
I fell in love with a heart that’s so pure.
Purple pink halos,
story starts with a hello,
A smile that hazed out.
And now you're in Australia,
With the girl you love.
And I'm 16 hours behind,
trying to catch up with your life.
I'm glad I knew you,
I'm glad I loved you.
You were my first love.
14 years old, and now I know,
cooler than me, was the song you sang for me.
And I love you rang in my head.
This wasn't a tragic love story, I"m glad.
It played out exactly how it was.
And it led us to exactly where we are.
have fun in Australia, don't let the spiders bite.
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