A part of me always felt like I hated life in college. College life was so full of uncertainties. I didn’t know where I want to go once I graduated. I didn't know if I had wasted thousands of dollars on a paper that I would never use, and I didn’t know where I would live post-graduation.
I didn’t know If I would ever find the boy that would make my fairytale dream come true: Where I am eating pancakes with him at 2 am on the kitchen floor as the rest of the world wanders away into dreamland or I am blasting my favorite song in the car as he dances away and I sing along to every word. I didn’t know if he existed.
I didn’t know if the friends I had then would be the ones I called to inform them that I was pregnant, or that I got promoted, or that my kid’s turning two in a month, or will they be the ones I text only during holidays because the magic and time for each other faded away? There's nothing I really knew and I hated that Anything could happen and turn my life around.
But there’s the silver lining; anything can happen. Anyday.
Anyday, I could meet the love of my life in a second and forget about the stupid boy that wasn’t good enough for me but still broke my heart. I could get discovered for doing something that I thought was just a hobby. Or I could get my dream job right after college and live the dream I have bled for, for four years. It’s the beauty in the pain.
So, hold on to your dreams and hopes and focus on the now, because it will all fall in line someday, and I promise you that you aren’t alone in anything you are going through. And even though life might not get easier as you grow, it gets better and everything will fall into place. Someday.
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